6.09 ~ Stop worrying where you're going- Move on "Move On" ~ Sunday in the Park with George

[the_sexy_quinn]

Considering the ease with which I've been able to let go of people and things in the past, I find it surprising that I'm having a really hard time letting something go right now. I didn't think about it for months because I've been so happy with Tom, and I assumed that I would eventually hear something. But I didn't and now I'm feeling a bit fucked over. And I hate it.

I know what it is. In the past, I've dropped friends on my own terms. I've never been dropped and it sucks. I know it's most likely a big karmic slap in the face, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.

It's been suggested that I seek out the guilty party and try to settle things, but, you know what? If he can't give a shit about saying one word to me after everything he shared with me, then fuck him. I don't need to worry about it. I guess I'm just too rotten to deserve any friends. Whatever.

I'm moving on. I'm moving past it.

I hope his new girlfriend dumps him.

Comments

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

Is this about the guy you met just after we started seeing each other, sweetheart?

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

Wanna talk about it?
*grin*
I promise not to be too jealous.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

Sweetheart, trust me when I say there's nothing about him that could make you jealous.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

But you do care about him, or you wouldn't be upset that he hasn't gotten in touch with you. Not that I'm jealous really, just worried about you because I know you're upset by him.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

I can't hide anything from you, can I? *little smile* It's just that we... I really thought we connected in such a strong way that there was no way he'd act like I don't exist. I don't even mean as a lover. Just as a person.

And don't get me started on the woman he's seeing now. Sure, I thought it would be horrible for him to be left alone for eternity, and I'm kind of glad that he's met someone, but he might as well be dating a coat rack! He needs someone with personality and excitement, not some wet dish rag of a girl.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

Maybe when it comes to women he likes dish rags, sweetheart.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

Gross. To be honest, when I found out they were dating, I lost some respect for him before I got pissed that he'd pick that over being friends with me. She needs to date a pussy, not an exciting man like that.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

Are you sure he's really as exciting as you think? I mean you did only know him a little while.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

I saw him in action, I had incredibly mindblowing sex a hot time with him, and we sort of made this deep connection. He has years and years of experience under his belt and he told me I was one of the best lovers he's had. I mean, he obviously has great judgment, so why is he interested in a wet mop?

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

Maybe he was just struck with momentary good taste when he met you and you were just too much for him to handle so now he's back to wet mops.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

*giggles* Stop making me laugh when I'm trying to be outraged.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

But I much prefer your 'Oh Tom, you goof' face to your pissed off face.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

Because you never get to see my pissed off face!

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

I've caught a few glimpses.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

I've never been mad at you, have I?

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

No, but I've seen the look you get. The day you came over and nursed me through getting drunk over Shy, you had that look. Same one you get when you tell me about some idiot at work who's pissed you off.

You know, it occurs to me that maybe, just maybe you're a little jealous of this guy's new relationship.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

Why would I be jealous? I don't want a relationship with him. I'm just pissed that he was supposed to be my friend and didn't act like it.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

Maybe you're jealous because she is taking his time, instead of him paying attention to you?

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

You know, that could be. But that would make me seem kind of petty.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

No, sweetheart, just human.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

Do you really think that's it? It doesn't feel like jealousy. Just sort of like he should pay attention to me because I knew him first.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

And that is very human, if not very practical.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

*grins* Fine. I guess I'm human after all. Damn.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

*grins*
Sucks to not be perfect, don't it?

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

Like you'd know how it feels to not be perfect. Puhleeze.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

Sweetheart, you have no idea how far from perfect I am.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

Tom, you're perfect to me.

[nosaint-justme.livejournal.com]

And you, my beautiful boy, are perfect to me too.

[spazomatik.livejournal.com]

You're so good to me.